Saturday, July 31, 2010

Lost In Paradise


I’ve tried being good, really,
And all I got was a mouthful of
Angry of the permanent kind.
The whispers in my ears got
Louder the more I shouted “No!”
And all my organs came together
To filibuster against the
Very thought of it.
I wanted to cultivate
Kindness and stabilize the
Dance with those I love,
But all the sweetness got me
Was an empty heart and a
Home echoing what might have been.
Meanwhile the angels
Were laughing and pointing to
My separateness, which I
Adopted before I knew
That stars don’t shine through the fog.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Awake, Again

Only in my mind is happiness
Equated with more and left
To wither on the banks of life.
I’ve eaten breakfast with my fears and
Grew tired of the moaning and
Wringing of hands at every
Turn of serendipity.
Tomorrow I vowed to awake today
And take myself back into
The secret places where
Joy sleeps amid the ruins of
Endless striving.  “Awake!”, I say,
“I’m back from the sleeping and
Wanting to play.  

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

I Should Have Known

I made the mistake of letting
A frightened part of the world
Into my psyche this morning.
A flash of images
Crying out in fear
At the sight of me.
A hall of mirrors showing
People their ghosts clothed
In transgender red flags
Waving across their blindness.
I should have known better,
And now I'll spend hours
Painting over the angry words
Scrawled on the fence around
My heart.

Monday, July 26, 2010

A New Day

The sun was warming the clouds
This morning when I first
Stepped out my door and began
The next chapter of a journey into
A different time.  
The bright orange clouds  hit the pale blue sky 
Like a cymbal clash,
So that only the birds could stay in tune.
This doesn’t scare me anymore.
I’m ready for the blindside to be my day.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Another Day

I’m gone now,
Though I didn’t mean to be.
I meant to paint the day with
Bright colors and deep thoughts,
Swinging wildly from book to
Breezy presence of minds.
Yet here I am, stuck with
A dullness and bone tired,
And still resolved not to
Down two cups of coffee
Before thinking. 

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Holding Tight

A cold wind blows
When minds have no
Thought for others.
It tries to open doors forcefully
But only gets tighter holds
On old ideas protecting
Faint hearts from new
Life and the possibility of
Losing something inside.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Another Lens

Gone are the days when only
Children walked the streets
And sidewalk chalk enclosed
A sweet, playful world.  
The time came when everything had
To be filtered through the lens
Of stuff-ness; divided and dissected
Until nothing was left unknown.
And then the sidewalk turned to sand
And the winds blew hot and demanding
Their due.  Did you think that
All the certainty would quench your
Thirst for truth?  Then take a glass
Of bitterness, for you lived the illusion.
But first go back and see again,
The move to grasp could be a time of
Playfulness as well.  
To take and make and mold
Can be a prelude to the act of magic.
Only see the thing again as
Whole and all is well.  

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Little Spaces

Cry for the laughter of 
Little spaces between the
The times I knew who I was and
The times when time stood still.
I was frozen then, though moving on,
and how I longed to just 
Be as I knew I could be.

Friday, July 16, 2010

I Bit On a Spoon

I woke up with a spoon in my mouth and
The sound of dragons crying in my ears.
The background was foggy as usual but
The dragon was all too clear.  
It roared as though to shake my world
And I trembled for a while until I
Remembered I was dreaming.  
The thought crossed my mind to
Not remember any of it
Lest I bring my wildness into
The forced quiet around me.  
I bit down on the spoon and
The dragon let out an angry roar;
Who did I think I was trying to do
Real things in a dream world?
Sometimes I get my rules mixed up and
The other players are momentarily
Perturbed.  That’s when the
Action gets interesting.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Oh, Time

Every moment gives
Birth to another, 
As though death
Was making love
To life.
And from the womb flows the
Illusion that only one
Mother could hold the baby
Crying out for a rest. 
But I know when it's time
To pass it on.


Sunday, July 11, 2010

The Bag Lady

She’s sitting on the sidewalk with
The pieces of her life all neatly
Folded in the 
Bags laid by her side.
She’s staring at the tin can that
Is clinking on occasion from the 
Coins thrown in by
People walkin’ by.
The music of the coins
Is banging through the air;
A jangle on the ear drums of
Those who do not care,
And a chorus of rebuke for
Those who would despair,
And the bag lady has
No tears to cry.
Staring in the distance she
Can see the years of labor that
She dreamed would be a 
Shelter from the night.
Nimble fingers flying she would
Feed the hungry needles sewing
Clothes she now cannot 
Afford to buy.
When the factory moved,
She stared in disbelief at
The shattering of dreams and
The coldness of the street;
And the fingers that she lived by
Were too worn to repeat,
But she walked away,
Determined not to die.  
People pass her every day,
Thinking they can walk away;
Toss a coin to  buy
Some peace of mind.  
We can’t see her way back when,
She was just like us, but then,
Fortune may be choosing
You or I.
Life upon the streets is
A factory of despair.
The heart could drown in sorrow,
When no one seems to care, but
The lady has her answer
Each day when she is there,
And the miracle of life
Is you and I.  

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Correct Me if I'm Wrong

Correct me if I’m wrong,
But didn’t I walk this way 
Just yesterday, when the
Sky was a blue and the 
Birds chirping just
As cheerily while my mind
Wandered other paths?
I know the leaves were 
Dancing lightly and the
Hop scotch game partially
Erased because I
Saw them out of the 
Corner of my eye.
I do know I remember that.
But my mind was on other 
Streets.  Streets where
Worries whisper to each other
Watching furtively to make
Sure they’re not being
Left behind, and Wishes
Dance in schools like silver
Fishes, flashing in the sun to
Keep captive my eye.
Streets where lost moments
Congregate, searching for the 
Right path into this moment.
But the sky and birds and leaves
Have the present, and those
Other streets stay in a town
Not far enough away to
Keep me from being divided.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Boundary

I don’t know where it ends,
This wanting what I think
I don’t have.  Is there
 A definition for what seems
Undefinable?
Or a boundary around
Not?

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

The North Star

Over the top of
The world a star
Stands astride all
We hold dear.
“Cry if you must”,
She says, “but
Walk with me,
Flowing down the
Milky Way, finding
A light ‘neath every step.” 

Saturday, July 3, 2010

The End of The Party

I gaze upon dark windows,
Frozen to their dark, deadly stare.
I see the endless empty space where
A rhythmic rumble once filled the air.
I smell the dank decay 
Of idle, rusting engines rotting in the grave,
And fill the yawning cavern with
An idle worker’s daze.
Who drove the mass unnumbered
To make the behemoth go?
Made sex appeal a salesman’s dream and
Sold the the gadget's glow?
Where are the golden nuggets
That flew into the bank?
Where are the Wall Street numbers
That turned the money crank?
All lies in pretty shambles
Upon the trading floor,
And midst the cries of “Crisis!” 
Is sneaking out the door.

And then again the worker,
With union raised on high
To take their place in dignity
On shouts of “Unite or die!”
Where are the rules books lying now?
What do they now protect?
Where is the time of life secure;
Who stands within to object
From inside empty walls now gone
Who has a place to go?
The source of wage and comradeship
Resounds with joy no more.

And what of happy buyers,
Where are the dreams of yore?
What’s left to fill the owners days?
What came to rust the toys?
What happened to the mortgaged home
Where once the music played?
For now the piper comes back round,
And surely must be paid.

But somehow midst the wreckage,
I cannot join the dance
Of dirges from the Reaper Grim
I know the smell that comes from him,
And death he’ll sing if you let him in,
But I say “Not a chance!”  
I’ll try to walk in earnest
Upon a different path;
To let my judgments float on by
And focus on the earth and sky,
To forge ahead I’ll surely try 
To drink of hope at last.

I have no plan or purpose,
Beyond the current day,
At least, that is, I know my plans
Will crash upon a rocky land
And leave me on the other hand
With naught left but to play.
And if you see a banner
furling from my staff,
It’s just to join in simple life,
And at our foibles laugh.

Friday, July 2, 2010

What is My Name?

What is my name?
Fool, naive one, or not 
Yet born to the truth?
I can’t know the difference until
I stop eating gruel and
Finally drink the
Sweet nectar of nothing.